Hello out there!! Welcome. I'm Red (the color) even though my favorite color is blue.

I always had this weird feel about everything, like a depression or a sadness. Everything seemed pointless and I almost didn't feel anything. It was like I was in a shell or on autopilot, just going through the motions.

I never cared for school or reading, and never liked authority. Overall, I was a good boy and was never a problem child. I didn't like drawing attention to myself and avoided all sorts of trouble and conflict. There is a sort of neutrality that has still stuck with me till this day. I had no idea I was a dosile obediant servant to the system.
Teenage years were mainly football, playing video games, and hanging out with friends. I truly believed that if we went to school and got a job, that we would live happily ever after. I went through the motions, made some friends and graduated. I never really planned on more education as I didn't want to sit at a desk. I figured it was time to set out and establish myself, like they told me to...

After taking the red pill everything changed to where I was a different man. Communication skills changed, and I learned to listen and engage others differently than before. It might have been the dope? or the shrooms? or the Sun-Jupiter-Mercury-Venus combo in a 6 degree span in the 3rd house of Pisces?

I see through the same eyes and hear through the same ears, but I see and hear everything from a new perspective. This was the point of my life where it was decided that I love being alive and want to soak up every moment of it.

I got to a stage where I was asking questions and seeking knowledge. I'm a firm believer that knowledge is power. I thought at the time aquiring knowledge would help me answer questions about many important issues. I just wanted to know why the world was the way it was and how it runs. There were a few contributing factors to how I found out the world is not how it should be. Some moments of clarity sent me in certain directions and today I'm still, struggling to stay behind.

Now what? This is the question I think of all the time. Many of us know what is happening around us in the world, but there is still the lesson to be learned and purpose to be experienced. I guess the only real answer is to take things as they come, day by day, one step at a time.

Remember: Infinite love is the only truth EVERYTHING else is illusion...